Saturday, April 1, 2023

PERSEVERE…

 15 years ago I started this blog…

Thank you for the challenge Aunt Carlene. R.I.P. 

Daily prayers is my sustenance…My favorite prayers have been born out of some of my greatest life challenges growing up in a chemically dependent, dysfunctional family. My acolyte prayer from my high school teenage years in Hemet, California at Episcopalian Church of the Good Shepherd. Another prayer from one of the Stations of the Cross, from the Sanctuary in Emmitsburg, Maryland: “Persevere in your resolutions of reform. And do not part from the Cross. He who perseveres to the end shall be saved”! 

Where my life is now, I’m facing cancer surgery in July. In spite of my own health challenges, it is the health of my wife and children that predominate in my time now. My eldest, soon to be 50, fighting for his.life with ADENOID Cystic Carcinoma. Another soon fighting go sobriety, arthritis in several more, THYROID Disease, another faced Lyme Disease with consequences, and my wife with CTD. 

The greatest emotional pains are the imposed sanctions with 2 of my 7 kids. I want my kids in my life, however, their chives have been to the contrary… too much judgment. So much emotional pain. I’ve made my own mistakes in life and the outcome so painful.  I want both these sons back, connected again…it’s a daily prayer…